Aq TeRKiLaN...

Honestly aq mmg sgat2 trkilan
Lpas aq dah sronok dok kat matrix,mggu ke3 aq kat cny
Ttba mama aq call,tp coz aq dlm kuliah, aq xpasan r
Time kat surau,lpas solat,aq col balik mama aq
Mama aq mcm plik ja sora dy
Mama aq pon ckp, "Kakak,tok long manap xdak dah.."
Aq mcm blurr gler,aq juz kata Innalillah...
Aq xtau apa yg aq rasa,aq pi kelas mcm besa,tp aq rasa kosong sgt2
Pas2 time maghrib, bila aq sudah solat, aq pn baca surah Yasin, niat utk arwah,
Ttba aq rasa sebak sgt2,air mata aq laju ja trun...
Aq cuba hbiskan juga surah tue..
Pas2 aq bca tahlil dri sini coz aq xblik...
Mmg aq trkilan sgt..
Tok long manap 2 r satu2 nya tok wan menakan aq..
Mmg drpd kcik,aq rapat ngn dy coz dy suka usik aq..
Stiap kali jmpa, msti dy ngusik aq smpai r aq nyh dah sek men...
Aq rasa ralat sgt sbb tak dpt jumpa dy sblom mai matrix..
Semoga tok long manap ditempatkan dgn org2 beriman dan soleh...
AMIN....

MaTrIx!!! HoPe ThE rEAllY ReaL CHoIcE!!!

Okay,it has been 3 weeks I stop writing in this blog

I want to write about matrix of coz, hehe

The first week I've be there, I really love it

To see my old friends..the environment, the new friends, the new practicum's mates n the roommates n of coz my lovely mentor, Puan Kazrina whom really inspiring me

As I started to adapt, suddenly my dad called and told that I've got IIUM' English course!!

I was totally startled and shocked...

WHAT???

And I only have 2 days to make decision

At first, I want to go to IIUM, but then, I thinking deeply

By going to IIUM, I wouldn't learn Maths anymore..

But can I score in Sciences' subject????

I wonder if I can

I called many of my best friends, mostly adviced me to go as they think that I can really do better in English

Until I called of one of my friends by hope that she will support me, but I was totally wrong!! 

The way she said like I am totally a hopeless Sciences' student n she doesn't think that I'm able to carry on Sciences' subject!!!N she said, "Sedarla diri sket...Hg boleh bawak ka Kimia Biologi?? BI boleh la"

I was really sad by hearing that, I felt totally frustrated..How can she ever said that??

My friend that I really put my hopes doesn't even advice me but totally insulted me!!

On that time, I really regret for calling her..

As we'd done talking, I cried in my room..''How can you??"

The next day, I met with mentor n asked her

She adviced me to really think about this, if I think that I can do better in English,I should go to IIUM, but if I think that I can carry on with Sciences' subject, just carry on...

After I prayed so many times, I could only see matrix, so I chose to stay...

For my parents that I know prefer me to study Sciences' subject although they never provoke me to make any decision, to show to my friend that I can do better than her if I want and the most important, I want to pay back for my regret in SPM!!

If there a wish, there are a way..

Maybe this is my may that ALLAH showed for me

AMINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN