I want to write about matrix of coz, hehe
The first week I've be there, I really love it
To see my old friends..the environment, the new friends, the new practicum's mates n the roommates n of coz my lovely mentor, Puan Kazrina whom really inspiring me
As I started to adapt, suddenly my dad called and told that I've got IIUM' English course!!
I was totally startled and shocked...
WHAT???
And I only have 2 days to make decision
At first, I want to go to IIUM, but then, I thinking deeply
By going to IIUM, I wouldn't learn Maths anymore..
But can I score in Sciences' subject????
I wonder if I can
I called many of my best friends, mostly adviced me to go as they think that I can really do better in English
Until I called of one of my friends by hope that she will support me, but I was totally wrong!!
The way she said like I am totally a hopeless Sciences' student n she doesn't think that I'm able to carry on Sciences' subject!!!N she said, "Sedarla diri sket...Hg boleh bawak ka Kimia Biologi?? BI boleh la"
I was really sad by hearing that, I felt totally frustrated..How can she ever said that??
My friend that I really put my hopes doesn't even advice me but totally insulted me!!
On that time, I really regret for calling her..
As we'd done talking, I cried in my room..''How can you??"
The next day, I met with mentor n asked her
She adviced me to really think about this, if I think that I can do better in English,I should go to IIUM, but if I think that I can carry on with Sciences' subject, just carry on...
After I prayed so many times, I could only see matrix, so I chose to stay...
For my parents that I know prefer me to study Sciences' subject although they never provoke me to make any decision, to show to my friend that I can do better than her if I want and the most important, I want to pay back for my regret in SPM!!
If there a wish, there are a way..
Maybe this is my may that ALLAH showed for me
AMINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN
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